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June 9th 2009
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June 9 2009:
Hello world, how have you been? That’s good. I’ve been fine I guess. Nothing
special has been going on in my world. This may be another short My Thoughts
post, since I really don’t have much to talk about again. There isn’t anything
exciting in my life… no new boyfriend, no new job, no progress on basically any
front… so this will just be a few short stories of things on my mind as I write
this.
I just got back from getting a haircut, and as usual, I’m dissatisfied. I still
feel as though I’m losing my hair quicker then I’d like. [Editorial Note: A year after I wrote this, I do not feel as though I have a hair loss issue. It was just stress.] It started after my
last relationship ended… or at least that’s when I noticed it. Hopefully it’s
just stress related, but regardless I’ve been taking multivitamins heavy in
Biotin and have started to take a prescription drug called Finasteride to help
lower the levels of Dihydrotestosterone in my blood and therefore scalp. I’m
only on month two of the medication and it takes at least 6-12 months for the
drug to have any real effects. I have, however, noticed a decline in my sexual
appetite… that symptom only happens in ~1% of patients, and I’m fairly certain
that it is probably just a psychosomatic response to taking the medication and
being jaded about relationships and men in general.
Not much else is new in my life. I’m still struggling to find more work for my
current business, and still trying to find a good job opportunity elsewhere.
It’s very difficult and so far I haven’t found anything, but I’ll keep looking.
I’m living as lean as possible, cooking at home as often as possible, not
hanging out with friends practically at all, and just barely making my minimum
monthly obligations… that’s after not paying any credit cards, back taxes, or
health care. Oh how things were so much different just two or so years ago.
I did manage to get two new (badly needed) tires on my car recently. I took the
car to the dealership to get the tires replaced and they ended up putting the
tires on backwards! I went back the next day and they fixed the error for free
and gave me a coupon for a free oil change next time I come in. I’m just glad I
caught the error. I did some research and found out that the tires were designed
to be put on a certain way so that the tred of the tires can push water away
from the tire properly and obtain as much traction as possible while driving.
Who knows, maybe I should have let the tires be on that way, got in to a car
crash, and then sued them... nah, not my personality type and safety always
comes first. Here is a picture of the tire. Some readers have complained that I
haven’t put any pictures in these posts in a while… so HERE! HERE’S A DAMN
PICTURE!
My friend Michael opened a new Art Gallery in Downtown Sacramento in the last
month, when the gallery gets a new website I’ll post a link to it in my Friend’s
links section of this site. My other friend, Rob is also still on vacation in
South East Asia. He should return in a few days. He went with his long distance
partner on a trip to Malaysia, Vietnam, Bali, Thailand and Singapore. Geez...
I’m jealous!.
I’ve started a gym routine that has been working out fairly well. I have been
fairly consistently going for about 3-4 weeks now. I find that if I go to the
24hr fitness that is about 15 miles away from my home, instead of the Downtown
Sacramento 24hr fitness, I’m much more likely to go. The downtown one is
basically just a meeting spot for gay people to check each other out, and every
time I would go I’d run into people I didn’t want to see, or didn’t want looking
at me as I try to work out. There is also a very low probability of running in
to exes at the location I’ve been going to. So I feel as though this workout
routine should be more successful then attempts in the past.
I guess that’s all I really have to write about. If my posts continue to be this
boring I may consider removing this portion of the site. There are still some
things on my heart and mind regarding my last relationship (like the second
package of clothes and belongings I put together of the exes that were laying
around my place that I have yet to mail to him….) but I don’t feel as though I
have to necessarily vocalize those thoughts any more. I still get emotional over
him from time to time… mostly sadness and loneliness… but I guess I’m starting
to just accept that there are some things I cannot change… and I’m starting to
focus more solely on the things that I can change. In the end maybe love will
find me and embrace me the same way I once embrace another. Eh, time will tell.
Until I write again, know that I do care about the people who read this, even if
I haven’t called or hung out with you in a while. Much love. -MT
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